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I wrote this 2 years ago, but I didn`t feel like posting it...(too personal).
The last years have taught me though, that the insights of a person who wrestles with GOD`s promises and HIS character, can help/inspire someone tremendously... may it be a blessing for someone this year
so here it goes:
The last couple of weeks have been a struggle for me. The darkness, which the autumn weather brought, crept slowly up towards my heart and I found myself struggling with some personal issues.
More than ever I felt the need for light and encouragement, which I felt had all been depleted during some stormy seasons I had faced during my life... I cried out to God, but God seemed to stay silent.
I couldn`t understand it and the darkness kept on creeping into my heart.
I felt lost...
Somehow I could relate to the words Job uttered when he was at his lowest:
"For my sighing comes in place of my food, and my groanings flow forth like water. … I have no ease, I have no quietness; I cannot rest; turmoil has come upon me."
(Job 3:24,26)
But still, I threw myself and my doubts into his presence... my exhausted and hurt body curled up next beneath his feet. I dug my fingers into the hem of his garment - I didn`t let go. I insisted on his mercy, on keeping his promises.
I cited bible verses, because I wanted to believe it, although I couldn`t in this moment...
silence. frustration. desperation. cry...
I felt unheard and I wrestled with his promises and his character, I thought I knew, I thought I "deserved" to know...
I didn`t let go, although it seemed pointless... silence...no light at the end of the tunnel...nothing.
I felt lost -
I felt so far off, drifting away from him,
I felt like my prayers never even reached his ears.
But I kept on holding on - why didn`t he care? Did he care enough to show up?!? I asked myself pushing closer, whilst simultaneously drifting away in this stormy season...
... But God ...
Oh HIS powerful majesty
HE didn`t let go either...
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